About: ForeverHis

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Just a person in a difficult situation trying my best to figure out just how to do with all the different negative and positive emotions and feelings. For once I know what I want to do and who I want to be with more than anything else in this life. He is the only true home I have ever known. He is my everything, but I do not think he realizes I am for real. I do not think he knows how much I struggle with the pain and hardship of never getting to spend time with him. What makes it worse is it does not seem to bother him at all. Where his heart at one point was open there is now a huge cold wall. I do not want to argue or fight. I simply want to find the right way to be with him and if that really is what he wants. I know I get mad, but that can never take away my love. I know my worth and that I deserve so much more than this... and I pray every day that he knows it too. For the first time in my life I voluntarily want to join a church and have that kind of good relationship. I have done so many things I have never done in my life before for my love and would never do for anybody else. I know regret, pain, loss, and heartache, but I also know love, joy, happiness, completeness, fulfillment, butterflies every time like its the first... I miss him so much he cannot possibly know. I am trying my hardest but I cannot even tell if it shows.

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