Dec 05 2010

a lovers DREAM

Published by at 2:29 am under Heartbreak Poems

Sittin here pourin out my heart on this page.
Creatin false hope that one day you could love me.
Am I not enough or Am I too much for you to handle.
Have I graduated from being your love and now I’m your hate?
Do I even matter,bcuz lost love is like no love.
Only difference is you hurt more.
touch my hand, don’t touch my body.
To the world I’m nobody.
You were my heart.
I looked up to you with love.
Neva thought you would hurt me.
BULLSHIT! I guess I was wrong.
The love I had for you was so strong.
It could overcome hate.
But now hate is all I feel.
I wish I could smile but this smile is so unreal.
Like monica said you got me so gone.
I’m so gone I’m not here.
Be with me or be without.
But you choose to be alone.
Your actions influenced me to move.
I use to love the way you talk and groove.
But now I keep my distance from you.
I still got love for you.
Just know you dont come first.

This post was submitted by jae wills.

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4 Responses to “a lovers DREAM”

  1. iwait4you4everon 05 Dec 2010 at 4:19 am

    wow that was awesome.. wish my ex woulda put me first but looks like everything was all in my head in the end.. i wish you luck hun.. love isnt easy.. i really dont know how to feel about my situation anymore.. im just numb.. still love him that wont ever go away even if i wanted it to.. but idk if i can forgive him this time.. its something i will have to ponder for a long time. love is very very hard not idyllistic like i always thought it would be personally.. i wish him the best but with all of his words he pretty much told me he did not want to be with me and i should stop hoping that we would be more than friends.. so i gave him his wish.. hopefully your girl will see the light

  2. iwait4you4everon 05 Dec 2010 at 5:19 am

    all i can say is i hope this is not how my love feels.. i still love him very much no matter what i say.. i always will and i know i say hurtful things but then so does he.. i try not to.. this time i couldnt stop them… : /… i want to be with him but he says he just wants a friend.. it was never about sex but he seemed to think that is what i wanted when it was not.. i wanted to come spend xmas with him and get to know him better and where he was from.. but he thought i would freak out at seeing him kiss someone else.. it would have hurt but i wouldnt have said anything.. i dont know what he wants… i wanted him and god help me i still do.. i hurt so much right now.. i cannot even begin to explain it.. the night after i took a knife to my wrist and start to cut.. it was the only thing that made me still feel alive.. i hate admitting that.. so much pain… i would suffer it over and over and give everything if i thought he actually wanted me.. but he made it clear he did not… im sorry you are hurting so much.. i know pain as well… i will say this i know for myself i am barely living and honestly i wish that at some point god will do me a favor and take me away… without my everything what is the point of living you know… i try to fake and act like im not dying inside and hurting.. when all i want to do is reach out to him and cry to tell him how much i am hurting but he would probablly hang up on me or mock my tears again.. so lol i am pretty much screwed and my life is done for.. now i get to live in misery

  3. didion 09 Dec 2010 at 5:39 am


  4. mandyon 13 Dec 2010 at 7:02 pm

    I do like your poem, correction i love it! it shows that your angry and have got pride but at the same time deep down you still love that person. keep up the wonderful work and just know many peolpe can relate to your work. As for iwait4you4ever, i understand that where you were comming from that you were sharing your story to show the writter that you can relate, but some things are better not posted where everyone and anyone can see them. I’m sorry for your loss and no matter what it does take guts to tell everyone your story. Not trying to be rude but maybe you should find somone that your close to and trust to talk to other than posting them in a comment box on the internet.

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