Nov 30 2011
All this time….
He pushed me down and walked away
He hit me and never said sorry
He left me for something that was stupied
He broke my heart millions of times and didnt notice
He wonders why im sad but he dont know that its him that makes me sad
He makes me cry every night before bed and he dont evan care
He dont care about my personality but my body
He calls me hot instead of pretty
He Hurts me and laughs
He says he loves me but he also said it to another girl
But what makes me Sad the most is that of all the things i done for him, He repays me by breaking my heart all the god damn time !
Love the show of anger and emotion in this poem,usually it’s hard to find poems like that 🙂
Not having faimly and friends to support your decision makes this struggle all the harder. A huge part of a relationship is sex. If you aren’t comfortable with your partner sexually then there is no hope for the relationship surviving. Before you come out and potentially alienate your loved ones I suggest you make certain that it is what you want. If you break the news to your faimly without being adamant and certain they will not take you seriously. If you are not able to meet a woman in your area, go online. See what’s out there and get comfortable with lesbian sex. Maybe you’re not gay. Maybe you haven’t found the right man. I struggled for a while with feeling like I wasn’t fully appreciated. Women do tend to make better partners simply because they are more generous, affectionate, and are better listeners. In your case I would not be so quick to put a label on your sexuality. Instead, determine what you value in a partner and look for someone that can give you what you need, whether it be a man or a woman.
i know emotional hurt seems pretty inescapable
but NEVER let another physically hurt you, no matter how confused or attached you are, that is NOT LOVE