Dec 26 2011
It Hurts
my body just hunches in on itself
it feels like im being ripped apart
every sob breaks me
the tears sting my flesh
my hands shake into tiny pieces
because of all those mistakes
i just become undone
i stand and i scream and i beg
but it’s all futile
because even though my lips tremble
and my tongue calls out his name in a fleeting plea
even though my tears still roll
and my prayers are all for him
even though im breaking, falling apart, hurting, lying, scream, PLEASE
no comfort or solace or love
im alone
and it hurts
It hurts so much sometimes that i cant breathe
But i want – EXPECT – life to just stop and fall apart
But it doesn’t happen
I’m just alone
i just need someone to hold me
i need someone to love me
i need someone to be there
someone to care
someone to kiss me
someone to fill all the empty spaces
because im hollow
and where there’s a hole in me, tears soon start to flood
and it hurts
It hurts so much sometimes that i cant breathe
But it hurts inside, so i need to put that pain somewhere else
i need to get it away from the fragile glass beating beneath my chest
so i cut
i let the sting of a blade replace the sting of my tears
let the blade rip my skin to shreds as im consumed by agony
every breath is painful,
but i can fix it
i can stop cutting if i want to
i can put the blade down and start crying again, wishing u were here
i can get up off of this bathroom floor and let the sadness undo my very being
but instead i carve my story into my skin
etching truths i could never speak aloud
And somehow, finally, the world falls to pieces
Light replaced by dark
as everything goes black
And a last breath is sucked between my lips as his face flashes before my eyes
Staining blood across the floor
Death is here yet I need more
suffering for all of time
lies, deciet and hateful crime
keep your love but cherish me
innocent but now guilty
who were you, before that day?
before you left and went away
i mean nothing, abuse my life
fill it all with hate and strife
life was lost, i let it go
doing this, head hanging low
no confidence, no love is found
i just cry here on the ground
there’s nothing left, i have no soul
emo mood – thats how i roll
So fuck you all
because theyre all gone
people i trusted
people i loved
people i need
and i just feel hollow
Ok I just really want to say this, He’ll yeah!,let out those emotions!:)
i can relate easily to thisx
Thanks for your comments (Even though I only saw them now).