Oct 03 2011

Loner Wolf

Published by at 11:24 am under emo Poems

(I thought about the title being something like “Knowledge is Power” or “Ignorance is Bliss”
but I finally decided not to, simply because “Loner Wolf” seems to say it all. If you disagree, please tell me.
I’d love to know what title really is best)

Screaming and raging and breaking down walls
Howling as the wind, a loner wolf calls
Running astray, away from the pack
The world on your shoulders, you’re forced to crack

Slamming your fist into shards of scarlet glass
Deemed unworthy, not fit, lower class
Bleeding drops of crimson tears
Nothing has changed all through the years

The world stays a warpath, a place you should beware
Death equals love and hate equals care
You’re thrown at an army, one against the rest
You are degraded, failing test after test

It’s never enough, their eyes cold as ice
They say it’s luck – that you roll the dice
The lies keep on spilling, deceit rules us all
They expect us to run, before we can crawl

You’re kicked to the ground, broken inside
Feel like you’re nothing, just trying to hide
Believe that you’re worthless, though some say you’re not
Fear paralyzes you, as you’re stuck in one spot

Never moving forward, too scared to look back
One loner wolf spends eternity without his pack
He wanders in the city, living off of trash
Watching the humans as they fail and crash

He envies the others, the ones who fit in
What he doesn’t know, is that they envy him
We’re all in the same boat, we are all alone
We all want acceptance, to fit in a home

If we band together, standing as one
The war would be over, we would’ve won
If we could be a family, if we could unite
There would not be anger, not hated or spite

We could build on this earth, be happy and free
But the loner wolf is mocked, not allowed to just be
His soul is not treasured, his life passing by
Nobody ever cares, nor blinks an eye

He screams into the night, his pain heard by all
We just laugh as we stand and watch him fall
Howls ripped from his throat, we can hear his cries
But still no-one wakes up, not even as he dies

We watch him end, and want the same
Tiring of this endless, broken game
We don’t admit it, but we all regret
The things that we did, things that we said

Why did we leave him? Why did he die?
The truth finally sets in and I start to cry
I want to make it better, but I don’t know how
I don’t have the time, it must be done now!

My safe place is taken, the loner now me
It opens my eyes and I’m forced to see
The grass isn’t greener, it’s desert all around
My knees give way, I fall on the ground

I watch them watch me, it all fades away
My life is nothing, a monotone gray
The feeling of drowning, but I’m on dry land
One person reaches out, I grasp a warm hand

I realize there is hope, love can be found
Colour returns, as does all sound
There’s someone near me, someone I trust
But soon he leaves, too, and life seems to rust

The flowers are wilted, the sun doesn’t shine
It gets even worse, but I say I’m fine
They know it’s a lie, but why should they care?
My life’s not important, I am not rare

Agony as I breathe, craving the light
Deciding that wrong, is now simply right
I kill many people, I don’t count the lives
After all, the bad guy always thrives

The heroes are worshiped, but they don’t exists
I really need heaven, but hell just persists
It’s hard as the loner, I realize so late
I’d envied him most, thought his life was great

Weeping my dry tears on this missing tombstone
The sadness overwhelming, the hatred has grown
Hopelessly searching, not knowing for who
Just trying to get it, as I guess he did, too

They say knowledge is power, but ignorance is bliss
Questions unanswered. I don’t deserve this.
A tiny burning ember, in the pit of my heart
It’s kept me going, is my finish and start

When there is nothing, no air to breathe
When agony takes over with no time to grieve
When life is impossible, and glass cuts your skin
When there is no right, when it’s okay to sin

When blood smears your wall, and love can’t be found
When your knees get weak and you hit the ground
When life gets worse and friends don’t exists
When temptation gets even harder to resist

When you can’t hold on, just make it stop
Get something sharp and watch your blood drop
Hang from the ceiling or drink many pills
Jump in an ocean without any gills

Play with a fire or scratch off your skin
Starve yourself til you’re sickly thin
Climb in a freezer or shoot with a gun
Scream while you’re dying, just cuz it’s fun

Burn off your skin with molten tar
Onto the road, get hit by a car
Jump from the roof or grab a sharp knife
One drop of poison could end your life

Consider these methods, or think up your own
Fry up your brain with one high-pitched tone
Be creative, don’t fade into grey
Leave all the others, don’t be a clichรฉ

Whatever you do do, just do it fast
Your courage and resolve won’t always last
I have been thinking, that life is too long
Maybe I’m weak but no-one is strong

Now I’m the loner, missing past times
One made an impact, but They missed the signs
No unit formed, no bonds were made
We just kill and take, no fair trade

So finally the lone wolf, realized it was done
From down in hell, the demons had won
But now there is no life and earth is just ash
Humans had failed this, and started to crash

Each with their own plan, something to gain
Nothing was received, but hatred and pain
The people are long gone. but one still remains
Sifting through rubble of houses and trains

No thought of the future, no time left to count
It’s all been frozen by spite and by doubt
The humans had broken, what once had been whole
The one still left standing has now lost her soul

She finally lay down, in the pouring rain
Love once was stolen and hurt left a stain
She closes her eyes and drifts to sleep
The sleep is endless and eternally deep

She wakes up to fire, tortured by flame
Insanity her ally as she has no name
Her mind is now broken, she is undone
Licking the flames, eternity’s fun

Having a ball and making hell worse
Making a game from this hated curse
Not wanting her health back, not wanting life
Making fun of the devil and of her strife

Such a weird person and such an odd world
The place is of fire, but yet she is cold
An empty hollowness in the pit of her soul
Oblivion is her one and only goal

But yet as she seeks, she never finds
She’s burned alive, but she never minds
If pain is the answer, then send her some more
If leaving would help her, then show her the door

If killing would solve this, then she’ll kill ’em all
If breaking bones would stop it, just watch her crawl
If eating could work, too, she would get fat
If standing were helpful, she’s never sat

But nothing will help her, she’ll suffer alone
Still searching the answer, all on her own
Time doesn’t move so she’ll never die
She’s asking the questions: How? Who? And why?

The answer is easy, it’s always been us
We broke the people, it never was
I don’t know why, though. I guess it’s just greed
Wanting your own life, not caring about need

Others were helpful, I guess we’re not lost
But realization, came with a cost
They all sit in hell, we stare at the flames
We’re in our own worlds, we don’t know the names

Blank white walls,they’re keeping her in
Wanting those warm hands that belong to him
Craving affection, dreaming of his kiss
Knowledge is power, but this must be bliss

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11 responses so far

11 Responses to “Loner Wolf”

  1. xxPlagueRatxxon 03 Oct 2011 at 4:39 pm

    …. this. is. amazing….x

  2. pixieon 04 Oct 2011 at 5:49 am

    Thanks for taking the time to read ๐Ÿ˜›
    I know it was a bit long.

  3. pretty_gurl_swaggon 05 Oct 2011 at 6:48 am

    whoaaa…That was Thee best poem that i have ever read. That was so deep ๐Ÿ˜ฎ ..
    I’m snapping my fingers right now lol:)

  4. pixieon 05 Oct 2011 at 6:51 am

    Thank you soooo much for the kind comment :p

  5. pretty_gurl_swaggon 05 Oct 2011 at 6:58 am

    Welcome:D cuz it was truely awesome so you deserved it:^)

  6. pixieon 05 Oct 2011 at 7:46 am

    Thanks again :love:

  7. starduston 08 Dec 2011 at 11:56 pm

    Best. Poem. Ever.

    Enough said ๐Ÿ˜€

  8. pixieon 09 Dec 2011 at 6:44 am

    Thank you so much! You’re awesome :p

  9. Meghan222on 29 Dec 2011 at 3:33 am

    Loner wolf will always forever and eternally be in um heart as not of my favorite poems ;-( ^_^

  10. Meghan222on 29 Dec 2011 at 3:35 am

    Sorry meant “one” of my favorite poems,not “not”

  11. pixieon 05 Jan 2012 at 6:42 am

    Lol. Thanks for clearing that up, and thank you so much for the kind comment ๐Ÿ˜€

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