Jul 18 2011
My Life
i can never get enough of my fix, the urge to cut is burning me alive
the yearning breaks my soul, but I know I’ll take the dive
My temporary happiness relies on others, they keep my secret safe
They kept me on lock down, so many rules. But i started to chafe
I broke free of the bindings they’d held me in, i escaped
I changed myself to something animalistic, reshaped
I lived in the gutters, my only thought on my next high
the bliss consumed me, my blade and blood the only ally
Soon my body was covered in scars, etchings of insanity
I was something basic, primal, I had lost my humanity
The life I’d once lived was buried under shifting ashes
I remember those painful days only in brief flashes
Now I’m shivering, my body deathly pale and cold to the touch
Scarlet streams leak like tears from my body, I’m bleeding so much
My eyes close one final time, my last breath shuddering out
I’ve finally found my peace, I’ll no longer need to doubt
This post was submitted by pixie.
That in and of its self is the very nature of my soul and the struggle I fight daily.
Release from pain,
Release from flesh,
Release from fear,
Release of death.
Such a sweet release.
Thank you for reading. It really means a lot to me.
Also, even if it is a release, I don’t think you’d really find peace until everything has been resolved and understood, you know?