Jul 08 2011

Pain is All I still Understand

Published by at 11:28 am under emo Poems

Cutting and bleeding and weeping and pain,
Look not on me with that disdain.
These are the things that I know are right,
These are the things that fill my night.

Burning and scalding in a pill-popping craze,
Screaming aloud through harsh vodka’s haze.
This is what let’s me know I’m alive,
Yet just to feel something I still strive.

Putting the blade in the palm of my hand,
Because pain is all I still understand.
No one love’s me and no one cares,
This is all that gets me through their stares.

Sitting with the gun clenched in my fist,
This is the one sign they won’t have missed.
One final message and my pain can end,
I’ll give them a clue that I’m at my end.

This post was submitted by Justaboy.

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7 Responses to “Pain is All I still Understand”

  1. Jason Kerron 09 Jul 2011 at 1:13 pm

    i feel like that all the time

  2. pixieon 09 Jul 2011 at 5:29 pm

    I honestly have no idea what to say to tell you what i feel.

  3. alexis kohnkeon 11 Jul 2011 at 12:58 am

    im really young but i feel that way i wanna die and no one truly loves me alot of people in this world use the word love with out it really having any meaning to them sooner or later i wont be around and ill be forgotten forever

  4. Justaboyon 11 Jul 2011 at 1:55 am

    Well, on the one hand I’m glad that what I wrote could touch you all so deeply, that’s what I wanted was to get someone to understand me. But on the other hand I’m so, so, sorry that you all understand so well. Alexis, you have to hope that someone will come along. I know, because I’m in the same boat as you but hope is all that keeps me going most days and we can’t give up now or we let the fakes, the users, the heart-breakers, and everyone else that fucks up our lives win. Pixie, that someone as gifted with beautiful words as you doesn’t know what to say says it all.

  5. PainfulSinon 13 Jul 2011 at 11:20 pm

    I absolutly love this poem,i understand it so well n it made me cry bcuz i can relate to it so well..theres so much b.s n my life tht i do feel all these thngs sometimes @ once..n sumtimes i feel like im the only one, but i know im not n this poem makes it even more clearer..

  6. ?••Cryher••?on 29 Jul 2011 at 1:12 pm

    I am feeling all of this now…. That I cant stop myself from crying…. Hating all people around.. everything’s felt so irritating. .. So sad and hurt….. even think of suicide.. But thanks to this poem.. It makes me realize of something I cant explain… ?

  7. Justaboyon 29 Jul 2011 at 2:58 pm

    I’m glad that this poem is something that you can all relate to and that it creates such powerful emotions, that it resonates with you all so well, but I’m very sorry for the pain you obviously feel if you do relate to this. I’ve often thought of suicide but I have obligations to people and I just can’t do it and not feel guilty. Trust me, it’s not the answer to your problems. If you’re like me, then just think of all the people you’d be leaving behind. I’m sure that there’s someone somewhere who’d be devastated by it…and you don’t want to cause someone as much pain as you yourself are feeling now.

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