Jul 04 2011
The Secret
Shhh come closer…
I have a secret to tell..
It is about something rare to find…
and even harder to keep…
When so much in this world will
dumbfound you and make you blind..
and upon its loss it will make you weak…
Play with your head…
at times make your heart leap..
It started so small innocent and sweet…
Over the years to my suprise instead of
falling away.. like it sometimes has been known to do…
It began to grow…
Until even I am hard pressed to doubt…
That it is real and i no longer want to find a way out…
It can be quite scary for its not always a easy thing to keep true…
But before you can help it.. its in your eyes…
and everything that you do…
When it is gone.. or so it sometimes seems…
so too does your world fall away…
Turning empty and meaningless…
No light just pale shades of grey…
But wait for the truth…
Because it never left…
We have our problems and not just a few…
from the moment I took out my heart.. and gave it to you…
For so long… I had my doubts… but in the end my heart…
It always just simply knew…
Even when you fight and it gets pushed away.. it finds its way back to you..
Through the ups and downs..
Highs and lows….
From headaches to heartbreak…
It has always stood true…
Despite pain and loss..
Feelings of utter despair…
You come to me in dreams…
there is never a moment you are not truly there…
From someone who tries to rationalize the world…
I know some things just simply are…
Whether or not we are meant to be together..
thats one thing.. I might never know…
To dream subconsciously of someone I actually knew..
For me its never happened… ever except with you…
Maybe its a manifestation… of everything I could ever want…
that would be nothing new…
You have become my world…
Even if I cannot let you know…
Some things are better left unsaid…
until the right time….
I know I have through fear placed doubts in your head..
But one fact remains…
It doesnt matter how you act…
what you say or even what you do…
There has never been a moment
I didnt mean it when I said “I love you”
It has been a battle…
because some things had to be learned…
Understanding and patience..
you pointedly yearned…
Always my weaknesses
I freely admit…
However in life… we will discover in time…
The things worth the most … are worth
every step that it took…
In this there isnt a reference.. for which to look..
I have said hurtful things out of anger and pain… it is true…
Some emotions are quite powerful even when they are wrong..
I know you said never to give up all hope… and for you..
I did even though it tore me apart…
I cannot ask for what must freely be given….
The gift of your heart..
It has finally happened the ah ha! is suddenly here..
after all the times we have discussed it and how we
thought it should be…
I tested it not only once but twice and always the same singular result
Even with so much confusion, anger, and pain…
the times outside where tears fell like rain…
The weeping for hours.. the howling sounded ugly .. but
I can look up and proudly say my love is true…
and no matter how you may try to keep it at bay…
I am here in your life and refuse to just go away..
I know after so much… these words are the last you
want to hear…
I have learned its no longer about a return…
I dont expect a gain..
and I know how talking like this freaks you out…
So for now till you ask…
I will speak the words to the wind…
In the past many mistakes have been made…
but thats what makes everything so much sweeter…
For once I walk in knowing to not expect or hope for a thing…
As the words of never us … play their silent sad refrain…
It is quickly replaced with a chorus of glory halleluah… to but
have you in my life once again…
For you I would gladly walk through the flaming pits of hell..
and metephorically speaking in some ways I have…
In a world where this love so many will seek…
Time has gifted me with precious knowledge that the weak
will always let theirs quickly fade out…
when push comes to shove they quickly dissappear…
To selfishly seek safe haven from the mistake they do not
yet realize that they have made..
Leaving a strong cold wind to put out the fires that when
two people made a commitment should have eternally burned..
I like to think.. this is the reason we go through everything we have..
Because we know when we make a commitment..
of our hearts, mind, body and souls…
After past heartbreaks… we know we want to make…
something that will last.. forevermore..
I will remain steadfast …. loyal…
and yes it is true…
All this will be my little secret….
Who knows.. maybe one day…
Discovered….
By you..
For in the end…. no matter how many times you set me free…
You will always be… where my heart longs to live…
You a motherfucking genius!! This is like… I don’t even know what to think right now… I’m dumbfounded. I’m amazed. I’m drooling. Where have you been all my life?! You should be praised for this. I read this on my phone so I cant rate it yet. But I WILL find a computer, for my sake and rate this poem as much as I can.
Anonymouss seems to have said it all.
Brilliantly done.
that was so freaking amazing,long…but amazing!you sent a good message out to the world and I hope your proud 😀 ^_^ :p
thank you everyone… i just try to write how i feel… n sorry pixie i know ya like em shorter but i hadnt written in so long
Length didn’t matter here :p