Oct 20 2009
Wandering Through Life
Wandering Through Life
Kristie Kale
she wanders through life
wanting only to feel
searching for anything
that even seems to be real
she’s aced all her classes
some say she is smart
the facts are all useless
so she learned them by heart
she doesn’t care
for the propaganda they sell
she knows with what
they’ve paved the road to hell
she stays up late
to talk to the ceiling
she prays for hope
and she hopes for healing
she hears no answer
as she falls to sleep
no promises are made
so there are none to keep
she once has found the time
to relax, let go, and dream
she knows these streets, they can be tough
or at least so it may seem
with no one left to talk to
and too much to confess
the quiet cold of winter air
brings her to reminess
she rises before the sun
to beg the moon for wine
when she drinks the whole bottle
she knows shes crossed the line
she cannot remember clearly
her memory is gone
just as brilliant stars
yield to a brighter dawn
she cannot forget her grampa
nor remember her first kiss
she strains to remember
if she’s always been like this
the days are just a blur
the ones she spent getting high
she craves the tiny papers
she just wants to fry
she once had a feeling
of where with all
somewhere between the trauma
and the post acute withdrawal
she remembers the martyrs
she used to admire
how bravely they fought
and died in the fire
some think shes suicidal
but shes glad to be alive
to shiver in the cold all night
and pray that she’ll survive
out here they call her rain
she has made herself a name
another kindred spirit
that was swallowed by Love
It\’s crazy how much this reminds me of myself… that was wonderfu.. :cry