Apr 04 2011
Why can’t the past be forgotten..
Can’t the past, just be the past?
Can’t it be forgotten?
It’s a nightmare, playing like a video,
in my head everyday…
It was a mistake, never meant to happen,
A mistake that was never meant to happen….
I didn’t know what i was doing,
but i know now..
This nightmare, is like a demon,
killing me slowly, not wanting me to be happy,
I want to scream out loud,
I wanted to make you proud,
I wanted you to see,
Who i could be…
When i think of what i had done,
I can’t breathe,
Why can’t you see, it’s choking me!
I’m so so sorry, everythings not the same,
It’s my fault, I’m the one to blame
My anger takes hold of me,
The tears stream down my face,
My fist clenches..can’t you hear me?
I’m screamin, shoutin at the top of my lungs,
I lash out at the walls, my knuckles bleed,
the blood dripping from my hand..
it’s taking the pain away,
why can’t you see?
I wanted your love, i caused you pain,
I want to erase it, i’m going insane…
I’m going to hell when i die,
so don’t worry – you’ll be without me soon enough.
My head feels rough, dizzy, i feel sick..
I could apologise forever, just to keep
you and me together.. what’s done is done,
no going back.. only forwards…only forwards..
right..into…hell
charmingly depressing
i love it
I think the person you are writing this for will understand that your sorry and wont care about it because its you and they love you very much ;-( its also seems that they wouldnt be happy if you went to hell they’d rather go with you :love: