Jul 06 2014

A Love Like Never Before (All of Me)

Published by at 12:30 am under Heartbreak Poems

I have thought I was in love before…
Yes it is true…
And on this road of love discovery…
I found you..
I now know there are many types
And many ways to love someone..

And many ways for that precious emotion if it was not real..
To unravel.. forget about.. so easily let come undone…

With my first boyfriend…
I discovered… I did indeed have a heart..
In the beginning..
He dazzled me … but the love that I felt was almost over before it could even start..

He only wanted to change everything about me until I was a completely different person…
His thoughtless creation….
Beautiful but no heart…

I knew there had to be a reason
I could never completely give him my heart..
You.. you are a sumptuous banquet feast…
While honey… he was barely a meal..
I tried to make it work until trying was just tried out..
There was nothing I could have done..
Now in my mind there is not a doubt..

The next to time I thought I was in love…
I should have realized it could not possibly be true…
It was a mistake.. even though … it felt good for once to be needed…
I should have listened to my brain…
Its warnings I should have heeded..

I never could trust him.. from the very start..
Much less completely give him..
Something so fragile and precious..as that of my heart..
Still I ignored all the big highway billboards of warning…
If only I knew in the end how much my pocketbook and credit score would be in mourning…

I knew he was a liar who thought he would run game.. despite that fact I gave it my all just the same..
When you came along you made my pulse run wild.. and my heart..
It couldn’t help but to stutter…
I’m sorry if I was wrong to be so afraid….
Its because all that you can make me feel without any special aid..
I was not yet finished with the devil that I knew…
The only place at the time that seemed to be comfortable..
If I had been perhaps the new feelings created by you…
Would not have made me run so far so fast…
I thought out of all of them…
Surely you were the one who could make it last..

I know running was a giant mistake…
When it is you that I adore…
The unfortunate situation..
Made it harder than it had ever been …
My love and trust were freely given…
And my whole heart will have ever only be yours…
You have more of me than anyone..
Hell even more than I thought I could give…
If all of this was just a game to you..
Straight up I’m not sure how I can live…
I knew the day we met…
I shivered as touched by the hand of fate…
I know I have frequently messed up..
And I can only hope it is not too late…
Although from your actions …
The ignored phone calls…
The things you said you would do but never once were they done…
Have me believing my feelings and heart to you are meaningless…impossible dreams… unimportant fantasies that will never be true.. a fight to be fought…but never will be won…

You are the only person that I have found…
That for the long haul I really want..
Apparently you want that I should let you go…
But I at be assuming.. lord knows your communication is lacking still…
All I ask is that for once… can you take into consideration… just a little how I feel…
But then nothing I could ever say or do would be enough..

Its just my heart right….
No big deal..
Maybe I got it wrong when I thought…
Just this once..
I could have something real..

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