For You and Always Only You

Jul 04 2014

Published by ithoughtyoufelthesame at 3:16 am under Forever Love Poems

For once…
It is so hard to turn my feelings….
into the words….
that can properly convey ….
everything I need for you…
to know and read…

When I say you are my world…
The other half to my soul…
The missing piece to my heart’s puzzle…
The part of me… without which… I just would not be whole…

These are not just simply words….
It is as close as I can come…
To express how I truly feel..
For the first time in my life…
I know that true love is real…

The complicated situation we find ourselves in…
Makes me slowly go insane…
I have to keep busy…
Or I will think to much…
It would eat me alive…

I am for you and I hope one day you will realize..
you are for me…
Till then I steadfastly remain..

I know at times it may seem like I need and want
far too much..
Nothing could ever possibly be further from true…
When the only thing if ever asked I could want…
would be to put it simply.. Y-O-U…

I know at times I may seem self-absorbed and heartless to you…
I do not see how that could be true…
if every waking thought I have …
is how I could possibly make everything be right…
If there is any way I can relieve your stress…

I know I can be insecure…
it is only because of the feelings of helplessness…
I just do not know what to do…
I do not know how this could possibly work…
Without someone being hurt…
For once… I hope it will not be me…
But then I do not want it to be anyone else either..
I wish you could open up…
It might just give me a breather…

When this all first began…
you seemed to care so much more that is true..
I was so mixed up inside…
I ran too far and too fast…
And I am afraid I hurt you..
that you will never be able to feel the same..
I know in my heart..
I am the one who owns the blame..

Now the only time..
I can get a feeling that you care..
Is when we have touched…
I have felt you tremble..
You probably did not know…
but to me..
It meant so much..

If you only knew that it hurts me so much…
when you seem so distant and cold…
Like not spending time with me is easy to do…
and if you wanted… at any time you could let me go…
Like a slave to the auction… my love bought and re-sold…

I realize it can be very hard to open up…
Am I not worth that chance…
or have you never learned the love dance..

I want so much to know all that you are…
and for you to want to know all of me..
If you would only ask….
I would you anything in my power…
you desired…
I would swim in glass…
Walk through the hottest fire…

I do not want anyone to be hurt…
Late at night when it is just my thoughts and myself…
I get sick to my stomach…
It worries me so…
However, I just cannot find it in me to let you go..

None of this was planned..
Real love…
Rarely is…
I am not devious…
that will never change…
This is not all a part of some elaborate game..

It is not something for me that will simply pass..
Fifty years from now..
You will find my love …
It still for you lasts..

Whether we touch or not…
Your very essence is tattooed on my skin..
There is no getting away from you..
When you are inscribed on my body from within..
It kills me that our love could ever possibly be thought a sin..

You are my one and only dream..
A fantasy.. I know that while right now…
it cannot come true… It does not stop me from wishing… some day..
We will be able to hold each other and look at the same star..
That even though you are so near… you will no longer be so very far…
For all I want in this life…
Is to grow old with and be loved by you…
ONLY YOU..

I want to be able to go to bed at night with your hand in mine…
and wake in the morning to see your precious face…
No one else in this world …
this feeling you inspire..
could ever hope to replace..

I know at times…
I may seem negative…
Full of drama…
Angry…
and or upset…

The only reason for all of this…
is I wish you had more time…
to spend with me…
and I knew just where in your life
I could possibly fit…
More than the stars in the sky…
I wish there was a perfect solution..
to make you mine…
The way that whether you believe it or not..
you so long ago made me yours…

The decision… it is all up to you…
If you ever want me to leave…
well for you …
Though it would kill me…
This I would do..

I find it increasingly difficult…
to give up hope that one day..
there would be more of an US..
Until that day I will patiently wait..
For you to show up..
Or even just call…
I would rather be loved by you…
or not be loved at all..

No one from my past…
My present.. will ever compare…
Because when I look to the future…
All I see is you there..

My friends try to get me to go out with
the “perfect” mates they have found for me..
What they refuse to see is that of all of those guys…
Not one of them owns my hearts key…

Their touch could never set me on fire..
Their voice could not melt all my parts…
Their personality… could never find their way past the walls of my heart…

I pray that I will hear from you soon…
Every day without you…
Is like a dying flower..
Without rain….
A small piece of me dies…
I am afraid before too much longer…
Not much of me will remain..

I do not say this lightly..
So please my love take this to heart…
“I want and need you”…
Can we please have a real start?

I grow tired of this constant aching….
without you….
Tired of listening to the cries of my heart…
As it cries out for you….
Always…
ONLY YOU…
T.V.E… Maybe one day you will see…
all the future… with love…
could hold for you and me…
I would deny you nothing…
and hope you would do the same in return… until that day…
my heart will continue to yearn….

I hope you will find and read this…
And if nothing else…
Know that someone in the world…
Loves you very much…