Jul 02 2014
How I feel today
Do you know how it feels
To wake up every morning
And wish that you had died
To sit in the dark and cry
Wondering why you ever even tried
I never thought to fall for you
It something that refused to be put aside
You said you would never hurt me
I should have known then that you lied
I wanted to be your everything…
But instead have become your nothing..
If you did not realize
I too have my pride..
I deserve someone who can feel the same
Someone who can love me in return..
Not someone who does not appreciate me or even give me a chance…
Someone who never really tried to know me..
Instead fed me to the fire to be burned
And watched as the flames did dance..
Turning every part of me to dust that easily blower away with the wind…
I’m not arrogant when I say this..
But I was something that could have helped you be happy..
Something that comes along once in a lifetime.. once gone never to return
I didn’t deserve to suffer…
Feel your heat…
Then put out like trash into the cold..
All I wanted was simply someone who would stand beside me..
When I was sad to hug me and hold my hand..
Someone to lay beside me as I fell asleep and when I woke in the morning to see them and know my life was complete..
Maybe I should be happy to have even loved at all…
Because in the end what I thought was so simple
Just some of your time..
Not your money or even just your lust…
Turned out I was expecting way too much..
So quickly you disabused me of that dream..
Popped me like a pimple just to see I could bust..
I ditto that, we both have moved on but I will always be your rest of forever!!
Thanks for the comment 😀 Yah… I was just hurt and upset… this helps me deal with alot of negative emotions and feelings.. he is my happily ever after and always will be.. if he ever allowed himself to take the time to realize… i would love nothing more than to be his happy ever after too.. he really is my everything.. i just want to be his something… : / Maybe some day.. My heart refuses to give up hope… I havent talked to him in a little while… but it feels like forever… just a moment of time spent with him… makes a day of nothing but bad turn into the best day ever… i only hope i return the favor…
😉 Never give up on true love, I’m a firm believer in going after who I reintegro love. The only problem is most people give up too easily having too much pride to admitió they’re in love ultimately missing out on their soulmate. Maybe one day that unfinished chapter will be completed <3