Jun 30 2014
words
I can never seem to find all the words
To tell you how important you are to me…
I love you so much..
I can only hope one day you will truly see…
I hated the timing right from the start..
Neither of us was completely free to love
With all our hearts..
Now I am totally free..
While you are tied up still..
I am trying to have patience
For once in my life..
But I’m afraid you never can be free..
Even though you have my heart and always will..
There is a new beginning with every ending..
You live in too much comfort to ever take that chance…
I wish you would open your eyes and for once try comprehending…
Is this some sick joke played by the devil…
For something that feels so right to be so wrong..
I know in this situation…
I never did truly belong..
I miss you all the time..
You helped bring me so much joy…
I’m sorry all my discussion of feelings..
Were only seen as something I used to annoy..
What could I possibly ever say…
The happiness I felt inside my heart…
At one time had me so full..
I was damn near busting apart…
Now there is only pain and nothingness..
Wondering when it will ever end and what did I do to make it start..
For the first time I thought someone was truly interested in me just being myself…
Not wanting me to be the perfect little pixie.. the beautiful fairy…
Or the diplomatic elf..
I guess all this time the worst lies are the ones I told myself…
I thought you had similar feelings for me..
Turns out you always closed your eyes..
And pretended I was someone else..
Someone you didn’t secretly despise…
I admit I felt so much fear… because the way I felt….
I knew if anyone could ever truly do it my ice you would melt…
Every second I got to spend with you..
Meant the world to me…
You had my happiness in the palm of your hand…
Your brown eyes seemed to have captured my heart…
Beautiful words of love used to fall from these lips…
Songs of joy I could not help but sing..
Never thinking for a moment all the pain that you could bring…
Now my happiness is like dust upon the ground …
My heart crushed and broken beneath your heel in the dirty sand..
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